These two questions answer our Life. It rewinds our past, analyzes our present and shows a glimpse of our future. The movie itself was very good showing the self realization of two persons suffering from cancer, redefining their years of weight in the last few days. But this dialogue got imprinted in me.
And one more…
When we ask for Patience, God doesn’t give us Patience; instead He creates opportunities for us to be Patient. When we ask for Courage, God doesn’t give us Courage; instead He creates opportunities for us to be Courageous.
It feels great to spare some time with kids. The purity and innocence of them makes us remember our past too. Is it really the calmness of the child, or deep inside we too want that openness, freedom, simplicity and lovingness in us? I too love being around small kids and seek out their company. With them, the feeling of me being a tiny kid comes out. I try avoiding the complexities of maturity. The more I go near Nature, the more I feel being myself.
Recently I was watching some Persian movie, and the scene was a school. The way the children ran out of the school screaming after the school finished showed that it’s not just India where kids behave in that way. It seems that we love getting out of school. Our education system takes us away from our true nature, which I feel should be properly developed along with teaching the nuisances of society.
Each and every one of us comes here as a seed. Some are seed of Rose, some of Jasmine, some of Banyan, and so on. But the expectations from parents, teachers, society together with the schools, tries to take out a Lotus out of a Rose. In the process, the Lotus never flowers, and the original Rose too vanishes. Everyone is unique, and has the right to flower in its own genuine nature.
There comes the light, the light of hope, coming with the first ray of the Sun beaming directly towards me. The warmth poured by this morning ray of joy and happiness makes my day a new event in my journey of life, the journey towards the ultimate quest, the quest to learn, to get knowledge, knowledge of the unknown, the secrets of theLife and Death too. Death, which is known as the end of life, is it so? Or is it the beginning of a new journey, the journey beyond this life, journey to the unknown, the paradise, a new hope, hope of love, happiness, of getting into the Existence or rightly to say, to become the Existence itself. This journey has no schedule; beginning of this journey can be at anytime, without any invitation, hence, I want everything to be complete without any pending matters.
The New Year started with very warm moments. I went to meet one old (read eternally old) companion. Spent some quality time there. Delhi’s chilling weather is giving new warmth. The foggy morning, a walk on the lanes of Jungle gives a thrilling start of the day. One fine morning, when we were in the rose garden having a session of jogging cum walk, attracted by the dense rows of trees, I left the usual track and followed the peace of the forest. I found myself surrounded by the calmness n beauty of nature. Peacocks were wandering here and there. I got a bench with trees around without any sign of human. I sat there for a couple of minutes watching the beauty, listening to the tune of silence. Those moments energized me completely. May I get to stay close to nature.
I still remember that night at Jabalpur, when I was coming back to my flat from towards my college. I was riding alone, enjoying the beauty, calmness and cold breeze of night. As soon as I crossed the GCF gate and the speed breaker at Pat Baba turning, I had a realization, “What if I meet an accident and die”. That could happen to me anytime but I realized that moment that I was not at all prepared to die at that time. By preparedness, I mean I never hesitated on the thought of becoming dead, but I had lots of pending jobs to do like talking to many people, talking to them about various things, lots of places to visit, meeting some people and so on. Lots of such activities would have remained undone had I died at that moment.
Immediately, a new energy came to me and I continued my ride back home quite worried but planning to do all such pending tasks. Within a few days, I was satisfied upon my position of being up-to-date with my activities. I didn’t have to think at that time before leaving this mortal world. Happiness showered upon me after that.
That incident taught me a very practical and beautiful lesson, which later on Swamiji told us, about being up-to-date always. The best example he gave was of Mulla Nasiruddin. After that I tried my best to keep myself without any pending jobs.
Recently, while going back to Singrauli, many times I felt of dying by some possible accidents. That time I was too much disturbed upon thinking that I had lots of pending tasks (even after that incident). Even now, I have been feeling of my death coming, but my pending tasks keep me here. I’ll try my best being with time, here and now.
